devastated

On Thursday, November 20, 2003, my friend Scott was removed from life support and allowed to pass on. The following week was filled with plans for the funeral service, dealing with his estate, and basically being as much help to Scott’s father as possible. I don’t think I was much help, really, as I’ve spent most of the last couple weeks in a daze, just completely devastated. With Scott gone, I feel adrift somehow. I still can’t believe it, and I don’t know how to react, what to say. “Normal” life for me is out of reach. I feel weak, sick to my stomach. I’ve wanted to write something, to draw something, but I can’t find the words, can’t find the creative energy. Tim’s obit is great (although he refers to Scott as “Scotty,” which is something I never heard in person), and David’s art is fabulous. This is just the tip of the iceberg in terms of what has been created for Scott, but all that I know of online.

Rest in peace, my brother. I miss you.

- posted 3 December 2003 in

Comments

Michael Busick, Dec 4, 01:10 AM:
This whole experience has been very strange. I've lost a parent, a grandparent, and an uncle since 1992 and none of them had funeral services. My mother had a wake out there in Iowa, but I had just been there and couldn't afford the time off or another plane ticket. This was the first funeral for a friend. Most times, I'm fine and I say to myself that hopefully he's in a better place (I'm not a religious person) and I think my emotional and psychological life will return to normal someday soon. Then I hear songs like "Somewhere Over The Rainbow" (went to a musical of Wizard of Oz last night) and it's all I can do to keep from making a mess of my contact lenses. I consider myself a good observer of the many ironies in life. One that occurred to me after the service was that Scott went quietly. What were the odds of that happening? :)
Tim, Dec 5, 08:42 AM:
I think Scott tolerated the "Scotty" tag as a Trekkie nerd thing. I don't think he particularly cared for it one way or the other and I don't know if anyone else tried calling him that. It started out as a goofy Shatner-mock thing I was doing in the warehouse. David's art is outstanding; I love the style. Took me a minute to recognize the monolith for what it was. Great stuff. I think Scott would approve.

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